| | The beauties of a fading fad; seclusion.
Lucky for me, everyone loves myspace.
I have the time to update, in seclusion, so that I can get shit off of my chest.
Thus, begins my rant (even after I swore to myself I would never do this again);
Everything, is falling apart.
When I mean everything, I mean everything.
I don't know what I did to loose everything so quickly.
We've been off and on for a month or so now. I love him, so much more
than what anyone could imagine, interpret, or feel. The feelings I have
for him are my own, and with that said, no one could ever experiance
them.
Apparently, his love is fading.
He would believe my ex boyfriend over me.
He would push me away, and find others to confine in.
I feel like half of me is being ripped away, and being killed so slowly.
I tell him that I love him,
he's the only one I could ever want right now,
and I've tried to respect him, and give him the time he needs right now.
It isn't enough.
He would listen to the first rumor heard, and loose faith in all of the trust he has put into me.
I didn't do ANYTHING.
This is killing me.
I mean,
I've never, ever loved someone this much.
I even regretably love him more than I've ever loved my family.
He's the only one whose understood me, seen me,
and picked ME out of everyone in the world.
He has been my equal,
the only person who I've let see everything about my being,
the only person I've EVER let in, on EVERYTHING.
I'm miserable.
I know that if this all ends, and the past put into us just ends, I'll be able to live,
but I swear, I'm never going to love again.
It will never be the same.
And you may mock me, throw out my age, and say that I'm just young, but
I know when a good thing comes, and I know when things are different.
They are.
Then theres this;
I found out he's out of jail.
How could they LET SOMEONE OUT OF JAIL FOR WHAT HE DID?!
How is that overlooked?
I fucking despise society, and I fucking despise this bullshit excuse for a judicial system.
They'll fucking kill innocent people, ignore the wars of poverty and
urban controversy within the boundaries of our own country, try and
control every other fucking nation in the world,
and ignore a fucking RAPIST when evidence clearly points to him, and it's nothing more than A FUCKING FACT.
This is bullshit.
I'm fucking outraged.
FUCK this.
HE FUCKING RUINED MY LIFE,
and he's allowed TO SLEEP FUCKING PEACEFULLY AT NIGHT?
WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS IGNORANT, COMMUNIST BULLSHIT?
LAST TIME I FUCKING CHECKED THIS GOVERNMENT WAS A DEMOCRACY BASED ON WHAT IS GOOD, AND WHAT IS JUST.
THIS IS NOT JUST.
THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT.
I can't even touch anymore of this.
I can't rant anymore even if I wanted to.
All I have to say is I'm really tired of having strep throat, and not being able to hang out with my friends.
I'm going fucking crazy.
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| | Posted 2/11/2006 4:12 PM - 17 Views - 4 eProps - 2 comments
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